The return

 After 3 months woooaaa! Hello everyone ! it has been such a loong time from the last post i made as my life tuned out to be pretty complicated lately due to several times of working, travelling and being sick constantly, i need to apologize for that and I hope in the future I'm able to update my blog more often .. 

* I enter my work from Monday to Saturday, and if there happened to fall a gig on Saturday night,  I attended especially when I have the money and  Sunday is my most rest .. but sometimes still not prevented most important migratory so I also do not have the break ... 

obvious that I was skinny since I had work 

              But even though I was busy and need to focus more on my work I still publicize the event in my life, I want to share my experiences and learned outside, and I try to have time with others because they are important to me..

i want to share this random pics on about 3 months ago ( May-July 2013 )

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Managers and Supervisors

V.P. jhon rankins

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GiGs

                               Unholy lust @ IDB BAr and black sabbath @ headstock bar

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with BFF @ our Condo ( July 07 2013 )

                                               Me jhessy and Mimi from collage day till now.. 
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       
                                                 
                                               

                                                                   

         

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hope u enjoy .. :D till nextym 

April happenings

       ( ammNot in the mOod ryt now thought I'd fly into a rage ! but my room seems to have  unleashed) 

Hello everyone! I've been very busy lately and I couldn't post a lot. I have been busy due to recent events that passed and I had to dump and not have enough time to update it here.. hayss 

 I also can not properly able story today because I was frustrated ..   first and foremost This is because I do not know where or how do I start my job search, I can not focus properly because of my personal things have more concerns of, ( yes! i graduated !  and i will post my other grad pix soon ) Also I have many things to be considered about myself, and especially to this end of  month we will move a new home so I have not yet processed my other requirements also because I still do not know the address of our new live in.. en Ohgad'  I'm fucking hopeless when I hang around here in our home and have no money so I want to get a job right now !!! huhuh  alright!!!  I did not choose first a high position because I know I'll be preparing for it  so i will start first in low job or  even get a par-time job .. And I will not stop searching for this.. :(

By the way  I would like to thank all the lovely people and friends of mine that I met again here in ELYSIAN DARK FEST SERIES - The Anniversary Special In 5th series quarterly Dark Music festival..   I really..really miss them all and our satisfaction is always reminds me.. I really  enjoyed the bands played, where all are jumping,  slam-moshing, headbanging .. it is  insanely scary but soO much fun !! XD..

Here are more pictures that I took with other Dark lings at 5 EDF occurred on April 19, 2013 .. I didn't have a camera of my own  (although I planned to take a lot of pictures), :)

I will upload few professional photos later when I receive them..

                             Me and GOTHSARRY -visit her livejournal for more pictures

Me, Lilith, en just arrived from Germany 

our beloved Kua Joelen Mingi

Adorable named  Deda 

(middle vox of Asylum Escape band )

                                             
                                                            with a lovely named Annette
                                                            ( vox of  High in Mist band)

                                               ang poging-poging  si Burnek XD My friend

                                           
                                                 * Cheers! Get a Beer or take a piss

                                                      Vladimer, me and Joshua

  Aww, Thank you Ominous 19 Clothing for posting this !

 i did not expect it i really luv ur Shirt ! \m/

I got all this Stuff From Elysian Dark Fest Quinque, the one of Freebies the CD, And because I won the best outfit for the eve I got a shirt from Ominous , and my dream choker made by Lilith for me XD awesome!! ImmSoo excited for other surprises of ELYSIAN DARK FEST 6th See U there ! XD

   

HELLo SUMMER !

yea the dull winter is totally over.. the sun is making a more regular appearance and the temperature’s slowly creeping up.. I actually hate hot weather, it makes me dizzy and depressed, really does! hate sweating, i hate feel the awfull heat in my skin,  hate all of that s*it but the Accurate description of my life. The only reason I like summer because I get to get out of school, (speaking) 5 days to go and I will graduate hahaha because of the holidays I start to have time for myself I was able to attend gigs or is able to out of town with my bff''s or with my  family  and get some fresh air and quietness… <3

So, here are the photos that we took during our trip to SUBIC OCEAN ADVENTURE with my BFf's

        I almost want to undress there cause of  excessive heat but I still have shame haha

                             with the kindest Sarah thank u for bringing ur cam and taking some of the photo's haha 

                                                      with the Hotties Baliw prends XD 

                   I really enjoyed the day that we're together First time I get there and find dolphines, sea lions who dazzle me , Saw the strange fish in large aquarium,  and watched African Acrobat that I feel I am back in my childhood 

I WILL LATER UPLOAD THE OTHER PHOTO'S ON MY FB ALBUM.. 

                        AND HERE SOME OF MY SWIMMIN TIME W/ MY AUNT AND SISTER, PHOTO TAKEN LAST MONTH CLICK HERE FOR MORE PHOTO'S..

 I Have many plans to do this Summer First prepare my upcoming graduation, and seek employment as early, then experiment to make smoothies, and follow my diet plan, support the gigs, especially the upcoming ELYSIAN DARK FEST 5TH   The  anniversary special, or make some summer wardrobe, and be a good girl as much as possible .. hehe I will do all that I can to be able to enjoy the summer this year  even though I hate the heat xD <3 

right now, this is my latest update thank you for reading..  Many hugs -Anj

HOLY WEEK

Holy Thursday..(yesterday)

 - Nasa kwarto lang ako, hindi lumabas ng bahay, may load pero walang gana mag text, ang kasama ko lang ay ang kapatid kong babae at kasambahay namin.. nakakapanibago ng walang ginagawa dahil tapos na ang ojt ko at magpapraktis na lang ng graduation next week, at  laging ganito tuwing holy week tahimik, hindi sya boring kase may kakaibang presensya akong nararamdaman, nagagalak ang puso ko, nasa mood naman ako.. wala akong ibang ginawa kung di buklatin na lang mga notes ko habang kapatid ko naman binabasa yung bible nya at parehas namin inaalala yung mga sinulat namin last year nung nag celebrate kami ng holy week then biglang binuksan ng kasam-bahay namin yung TV at doon ko napasin  hindi lang pala puro drama at kwela ang palabas ngayon, parehas kami ng kapatid ko napalingon dahil  may magagandang mensahe kaming naririnig at excited ako marining lahat.. sayang lang at matatapos na pala iyon pero sobrang na blessed kami sa mga preacher na nag share about God's words .. they touch my heart and i feel the presence of God :) 

                                                                                             (yesterday)

                                 i was wonder bakit 8th word ang title instead na 7th word pero nung si BO Sanchez na ang last preacher i realize the 8th word is ME :)

GOOD FRIDAY - 
           Noon wala akong paki alam sa mga ganitong celebration pero simula ng tinanggap ko sa aking puso si Hesus, i try to put into practice lahat ng ito .. at mag kakaiba man ng pag cecelebrate ng iba nirerespeto ko ang lahat ..at  mabuti na lang din na may mga  ganitong website - HOLY WEEK
para maunawan ng iba kung ano ang holy week,  and This week is napaka importante nito na alalahanin ang lahat..lalo na  it  reminds us of Jesus and his suffering and death and resurrection..
   kami noon last year ay nakinig ng preach ni pastor  at nagkaroon kami ng film showing ang lahat ay imbitado at maraming nanood , ang pinanood namin noon ay The Passion Of the Christ at talagang naluluha ako kapag pinapanood ko yun at mamayang 2pm naman  kami ulit ay aattend ng service at magkakaroon muli ng Film showing wala pa akong idea sa ipapalabas pero excited na ako at sisimulan ko na rin ang pag papasting ko at pag bubulay-bulay ng salita ng Diyos.. 

i know it sounds ridiculous pero ito talaga ang nagpapagaan ng kalooban ko.. at masaya ako na naglilingkod ako sa Diyos at kahit marami akong pagkukulang nakikita ko na araw-araw ay binabago ako ng Diyos.. 

anyway i wanna share this Videos na isa sa mga inspirasyon ko.. at talagang may ikapupulot na aral.. 
  Click this Link - MY INSPIRATIONAL VIDEOS



                        

More fun on March

Hello my blogspot here I am again .. i miss to tell stories here, what I plan, what i made​​, but I did not do before because I still feel the sadness and feeling lost my interest but these latter days ago has many fun events happened,  many good times with friends especially in my OJT site, sometimes don't seem to be end  but there is also bad days and why this happens,  Much I learned and I know everything has a purpose..by now I will not allow to spoil the day that stating fun for me..all events, i will to try to express it here..

                                                               SUMMER is HERE ! 

anyway this Saturday is my rest day and feel the heat so today I wore my tank, skull shape that  I cut at  back, thing that matters this summer :3 I do not buy into the online shop because I could also make this..

                                                      Skull Cut Out back Tank

Much Fun Happened this MARCH:

*March 22- Swimming time in SUBIC with the Hotties ( BFF )

*March 21- Presenting our Case Con. is yez Success ! :) tyamba mga prof. good mood lol.

*March 17-I received a Ferrero Rocher chocolate from my friend :) U'r soo sweet.

*March 18- (Yonan and steven) they slept here at Home :)

*March 13 and 14 - Birthday at the same time farewell party of Mr.ray at RDC 

*i will upload these photo's soon..

                                                 
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                               You Complete my DAY :3 

            

                                               
                                                                                   Photo By: Demimi

2 weeks ago

the hardest thing to accept is that someone you love is gone. you’ll never again get to see their face or their smile, you’ll never again get to hug them tight or tell them how much you love them. you have to live with knowing that while there are over 7 billion people on this planet, they are no longer one of them..

                                                                 R.I.P. Dad Ilove you

I hate myself for not thinking about you everyday. I need to be distracted, if I’m not, I think of you and let my depression take hold of me. And I hate myself even more for letting that happen. I hate that I grew up without you. There’s nothing more that I want than to have you back. I hate that if you came back you wouldn’t even know who I am. I’m a different person without you. I’d be better if you were here. I want you to be proud of me. Yeah, you’ve been gone .. When I think about it, it still hurts just as much as it did the moment I found out you were gone. Your death has taken such a fucking toll on me. I swim in a sea of depression. I sink, Dad. I luckily have some people who realize this and pull me back up eventually. I don’t know how long this can go on for though. I tell myself not to sink. I go weeks with being okay, maybe even happy. And then something hits me and I remember I don’t have you here to fix it. Pa,  I miss you. I love you more than absolutely anybody else in this world.. T_T

start new ..

                (this photo's were taken at the time when I was busy with shit of face)

                                                 
                                                                  New Shoes <3

..   i felt fun and cozy  right  now ... thank you all .. though i'm still busy I think I need also have time for myself ..I now planned to go to the event in Q.C.  because it is Shekinah's birthday (vox of oremuz) i hope you should also get there..

 and I wanted to see my friends including  jacey, Kimy, joshua gothsarry OhGod I miss them soo badly..:(

                                              
                                      See you there .. ,<3

this is called love

       Hindi ko alam kung paano ako mag uumpisa.. maraming masasayang araw na lumipas.. hindi ko pa ma-update hanggang ngayon sa tingin ko kailngan ko talaga ng mahabang oras..
    pero ang punto ko ngayon,  hindi ko din maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko .. may masasayang araw na tila gusto ko na hindi na umalis doon.. pero alam ko sa bandang huli ako din ang masasaktan.. marami akong mga pag kakamaling ginawa,  mga desisyon  na hindi ko pinag isipan, sinunod ko lang ang emosyong nararamdaman ko .. na akala ko makakalimutan ko ang lahat ng kalungkutan, mawawala ang mga malulungkot na araw na gusto kong takasan.. kaya sa kahit anung saya ng araw may lungkot pa din na naiiwan, galit, bitternes, disappointment,  madalas nga kung sino pa ang may lumikha ng lahat ng bagay ay madalas ko naman syang kalimutan.. pinilit ko lang ang gusto ko sa ibang tao, na akala ko  kaya ko,  kung sino pa yung mga taong nasa paligid ko na palaging nandyan sila pa yung hindi ko appreciated.. may iba na nag tapat ng nararamdaman nya kahit mahirap sa kanya na sabihin sakin ang nararamdaman nya,  na kahit na sobrang labo na ganun din ang maramdaman ko sa kanya ay nag lakas loob pa din syang sabihin yun at masasabi kong napaka buti nyang tao, may iba naman na palagi ko na palang kausap, handa nya kong pakinggan  pero inaaway ko lang naman sya .. at hindi masyado binibigyan ng importansya, sya pala itong isa sa mga tunay kong kaibigan at hindi lahat ng lalaki ay katulad nya kung dumamay, ang ilan naman mga babaeng mag kakaiba iba ng personalidad na alam kong hindi talaga kami mag kakasundo sa mga hilig ko, at madalas pinag lilihiman ko pa din ng ibang bagay pero sa bandang huli sila at sila padin ang mga taong handa akong iangat..tulungan at handa akong pakisamahan sa pangit at maganda kong araw..at lalo na yung isang tao na alam kong tanggap ang buong pagkatao ko, at alam ko kahit araw araw kaya nya kong mahalin, sya pa na hindi ko din pinapansin, madalas kalimutan, at pakiramdam kong wala kaming pinag samahan sya pa itong patuloy kong sinasaktan.. parehas lang din sa ginagawa ko sa pamilya ko..

 At sobrang sakit ng ginawa ko... pakiramdam ko ang sama-sama ko.. kaya ngayon ung pag-ibig o pagmamahal na hinahanap ko e matagal na palang nandyan... nabubulagan lang ako...Gusto ko humingi ng tawad.. sa lahat.. at patuloy din na mag papasalamat lalo na kay Lord na pinapa realize nya ang lahat ng ito...T_T

                              Ang Pag-ibig na hindi mapapantayan ng sino man sa mundo.. Ang pag-ibig nya na mas malalim pa sa ikalaliman ng dagat, malawak na malawak pa sa universe.. hindi ko alam bat ako nag sasalita ng mga ganto pero umiiyak ako sa kantang toh...T_T


Salamat din sa mga taong buong pusong nag effort na ibigay ang mga bagay na ito.. hindi ko talaga inaasahan na kayo pa ang mag bibigay nito..:( 

          Everything sweet and Nice... Rose, Chocolates, or display rose, love letter.. Much Appreciated <3 Ilove you all soo much...

enjoy the moment

Would you like me to be your Psychologist? hihihi 

Haloooo everyone, it has definitely been a while since I have blogged! It has been a really busy month for me and when I say I literally haven't had the time, I really do mean it! 

Firstly I had my new OJT site at Reception and Diagnostics Center (RDC) i know this place are sending of new inmates with different Cases and Sentences and I'm not scared to be one of the practicum students there.. 

a few weeks ago we've inception and have done much like administering of  Psychological exams, Observing the 50 inmates While they are condemned i mean judging if they move to the maximum or medium, and often we did score and check  their answer sheets , also i finished interviewing the juvenile that  I already assign in me ..and now I will do this Psych. report and i need to finish this because everyday we have so much done there even though it's gonna be feel stressful but felt happy Anyway as well the treat of people there..:)

here's our first photos there : 

 ohmay.the wind..amnot Ready...

shet..the wind....ohgosh...my hair..

Hay..Finally...

i think this is cute.. obviously they are frequently with me

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Jan. 26 - So last night They were with me and we celebrated the birthday of jessie in her home at Katarugan Village, I drunk alone, And we eat, watching movies, Flirting, and laughing s..that would be a good time to us..  i returned home around 11pm..

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* To my Friends, Pls wait with your Fansign i promise to post it here on the first week of Feb. Thanks..:)